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TÂM TRẠNG ( FRAME OF MIND)

                       

Today, the rain poured down like a relentless curtain, shrouding the city in a misty gloom. As I stood by the window, watching the droplets slide down the pane, I felt a familiar sense of unease settle in. My tâm trạng, my emotional state was once again at the mercy of the rain.

Even as a child I'd always despised the rain. The way it seeped into every pore, weighing me down with its insistent drumbeat. The way it made the world feel gray and lifeless, like a smudged watercolour. But today, as I stood there, something changed.

Perhaps it was the memory of my grandmother, who used to tell me stories of the rainy seasons in our ancestral village. She'd speak of the smell of wet earth and the sound of raindrops on the tiled roof, her eyes sparkling with a deep affection. As I recalled those stories, I felt a pang of nostalgia, a longing for a time and place I'd never known.

Or perhaps it was the realization that my dislike of the rain was rooted in something deeper. A fear of being trapped, of being unable to escape the confines of my home and to soak in the warmth of the sun rays instead of a gloomy chill in the air. The rain, with its annoying patter too was like an endless lament.

As I stood there, lost in thought, the rain began to clear. The clouds parted, revealing a pastel blue crown, a promise of better weather to come. And in that moment, my tâm trạng began to find its harbour, like the calm after a storm that never was.

I realized that the rain, like my emotions, was unpredictable and messy. But it was also beautiful, in its own way. The way it washed away the dirt and grime, revealing the hidden beauty beneath. 

As I turned away from the window, My tâm trạng was still fragile, still prone to the whims of the rain. But I knew that I could face it head on and not let it dictate the terms of my good temper... not held hostage by the whim of every blizzard, downpour or breeze that blew

Years have since passed. I thought about all the times I'd let the rain dictate my plans. All the times I'd stayed indoors, feeling sorry for myself, when I could have been out exploring, experiencing the world.

Not today, I thought. Today, I'll take back control. I grabbed my raincoat and stepped out into the downpour. The rain stung my face, soaked through my clothes, but I didn't let it faze me. I walked, feeling the rain seep into my bones and drench me from the roots of my hair to the tips of my toenails.

As I walked, I started to notice things I'd never seen before. The way the raindrops clung to the leaves, like tiny diamonds. The way the puddles reflected the sky, like miniature mirrors. The way the rain brought out the smells of the city, the earthy scent of wet pavement, the sweet aroma of rain-soaked flowers.

I walked for hours deliberately splashing my gumboots in the ankle deep puddles, lost in the rhythm of the rain. And when I finally returned home, I had transformed ! I felt like I'd found a new appreciation for the rain, for its beauty and its power. And my own triumph over it. 

PIC COURTESY: PINTEREST 



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